O'lena is 5 months!!

So O'lena turned 5 months last Friday. Can you believe it?!? I can not! I cannot believe she has been in our lives for 5 months already. She is so big! She has grown and changed so much already!! That was my biggest depression issue postpartum; I didn't want her getting bigger. I would cry and cry about it. Thank goodness that is over! I still don't like her getting bigger. At each stage I like it better though. She is now a good hip sitter and I can walk around with her and use my hands. She is also rolling over and talking like crazy. She even sings to the radio and sometimes just to herself. She loves her toys and blankets. She is just awesome. I think she is about 17lbs now. We weighed her at Publix the other day. She doesn't go to the dr. until 6 months so we won't know an offical weight until then. Life has been good; busy, but good. I am liking our new pattern and schedule: come home from work, feed baby baby food, play, eat night time bottle, baby go to bed, mommy and daddy eat, then bed. I am still trying to work out, but I haven't been as good about it. I have lost 2 lbs! I guess that counts for something.

I dont know if I might be going through a midlife crisis or not, but I am wanting to cut off my hair again. Yes, I remember how much I hated it the last time I did it, but my long hair is driving me nuts right now. I'm not sure what to do. I really want a bob, but then again I don't want the up keep, but then again I want to be able to put it up, but then again I don't want anything on my neck, but then again if I cut is short there is no way of keeping it straight in the summer humidity, but then again it is getting heavy on my head, but then again I want it short, but then again my bald spots are not completely grown back yet, but then again I can donate it for the oil spill clean up, but then again I don't want to have to do it everyday, but then again I want CHANGE, but then again....okay so I could keep going. I dunno. I am also tired of big decisions. Work is getting to me with all the feelings of inadequacies and the life altering decisions I have to make for each child. In my job each kid needs so much that whatever you do is not enough because they need so much more. There is also not a perfect placement for anyone. It is always "where is the best fit?" or "who needs it the most?" Ideally eat kids would have a one on one private teacher to fill in all the gaps where life has not given them. Oh well hear me vent..... (Yeah I don't why this is all underlined! I cant get it to go away and I don't want to retype it all!! Sorry)

O'lena, yeah she's great. So is Derick. His garden is getting big. I can't wait to eat freshly grown cucumbers...ooooo and squash! Oh bad news. So we thought I would be able to go back to school to start my masters. I signed up for classes and everything....well come to find out that spouses do not receive free tuition for graduate level classes. Derick tried to turn in the paperwork and they were DENIED. Spouses get free tuition for undergrad classes but not masters levels. So at $900 a class, that has been put on the back burner. Probably for a good LONG time. Oh well again....I think Derick is enjoying the dad thing. He is really good with her. My favorite new thing he does is they will go face to face and they will just make noises together. It is so adorable!

What else is going on?.....20 days of school left! I am excited for summer, but not. I am excited for the staying home with the baby part, but I know that is only going to last for so long. Having to take care of a baby all day is HARD! Remember maternity leave!?! I get very stir crazy too after week two. The other thing I hate about summer is that you have have all these things planned that you want to do and you get NONE OF IT done. That just bugs me. Though one of my goals is to teach the baby how to float. I was going to get lessons, but they seem to be during the times that I can not get there AND expensive, so we are just going to spend a lot of time in the pool this summer practicing. Then again I say that now and I'm the one that doesn't like to swim unless I'm already wet. Man, I'm talkative tonight!! Hush Whitney and show the pictures......

Mommy and O'lena sitting on the couch, K-I-S-S-I-N-G, first comes love, then comes spit-up, then come O'lena in the baby carriage. :):) Yeah it doesn't rhyme but it just keeps popping in my head every time I see this picture.
Second time O'lena sat in the cart with out the car seat. No, she is not sitting up on her own yet, but she is trying. That is what the blanket in the back was for...support. She loved it though. I love the car chair cover our friend Linda made for us! It rocks

Oh yeah and her hair--it doesn't stick up any more but it has somewhat rubbed off on the side so it now looks like she has a mohawk that she doesnt style. It also looks like a comb over when I put it to the side to try to cover it up. Oh well. Maybe one day she will have normal looking hair.

O'lena first Mother Daughter Banquet at Wesley. She enjoyed it so much that she even fell asleep! hehehehehe

So Derick took her to the gun show a few weeks ago and she enjoyed it so much that she fell asleep there too!! Yes Derick took her and I stayed home (well I intended to stay home....) At least it is someone else for daddy to drag along to the "fun show." (Yes, Derick it is my most favorite place to go, I am just glad that now you can take her for daddy and daughter time....)........right....anyways...You should have seen him! He was walking around with her attached to the front of him and the diaper bag attached to his back. Our diaper bag is one of those with two handles that are suppose to be on your shoulder. He put it on like a backpack. They definitely were a sight to be seen.

Here is a video of Beena talking in the bathroom one morning. She can't sit on the counter any more because she would roll off. She now plays in her standing/sitty toy. We don't have a name for that thing yet. Anyways....she likes it. The first grrrr is me trying to get her to talk again. The rest is all her...i think....I thought she was cute. Oh and yes, daddy did her hair.

PS: The shower is on the list to be done on Memeorial Day. Wish us luck!